Miracles in reality

Always said I would know where to find love, Always thought I’d be ready and strong enough, But some times I just felt I could give up.

i haven’t finish packing yet,leaving in less then 12 hours time. sigh.
i wish there is someone i could talk to now. everyone seems busy.
feeling so weak deep inside. i have no idea why.
pass memories kept hunting me, my mind kept questioning itself, ‘what if this.. what if that..’
gosh, i had enough.
songs that reminded me of someone,something,some incident.. happy ones, sad ones..
so many good things happening around me now, so many blessing was given upon me.
it is unbelievable that i could finally fall in love once again,
it feels so good to hang out with my old friends once again..
*i miss timmy and malcolm a lot these days. i wish both of you were here with us in our little gatherings. was touched when i receive liang chiat’s sms. * thanks. =)
browsing through the pics, tears starts flowing. i’m glad that took all the pics,
i wish i could take more of them. pictures help to bring back memories, it is priceless.
thats why i always insist to take pictures. it tends to hold on to the moment, the feelings,
the memories.. it is indeed,priceless.
i have tons of pics to share in this blog. have to resize them first though, so it takes time.
u guys can view abigail babe’s blog, she updated hers, with pictures. lol.
i’ll be back.

love, adelinechen

written by adelinecrystal

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 Im back from Bali !!!! 

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I’v changed [Miracles in Mind] to [ Miracles in reality]
and i’v change a bit of the tag line too.

this is because i’v came to a point..a point when i finally realized that i DO need miracles in my real life(reality)not just in my mind. i crave for more miracles now. you know, its possible. just believe and have faith. you will experience it yourself, the miracles around you.
meeting my boyfriend was a wonderful miracle itself. its a testimonial to share.
till now.. it is still a miracle for us. the feeling, is special. none of us expect to meet each other and got together in such a short period of time. none of us expect that to happen in our life. we met, on the day he was having his farewell party with close friends,2 days before he leaves to France and i was only on my short trip to Melaka.
it was like a fairy tale story said baby,his mum agreed.
he was like the prince who came for the rescue when i was in the darkest side of my world. when i wasnt looking at my best.
when i was entirely heart broken.
when i was losing hope in love.
he appeared right in front of me.
like an angel.
Hold me tight when i was feeling insecure.
promise that he will be there for me no matter what happens.
telling me that ‘its alright’ when things goes wrong.
comforted me when i was crying half dead on the phone when he was in france 2 month ago. telling me that its not right to judge people.
correct me whenever i do wrong.
make me laugh like no ones business.
and most importantly,
he is always sensitive enough to know my flows,
patient enough to listen to my craps.
aah, communication is really important in the relationship.
we both agree on that.
owh, wait a second,baby reminded me of that actually.

coz i was kind of sick of talking, explanation and making my partner understand due to my past relationship. sigh it was a mess. total mess without communication. ah well, its over now. i’m seriously glad it is.

thanks baby for reminding me all that.
and..hey baby, just want to tell you that i really thank God for having you in my life right now. thanks for loving me as who i am. you know me well inside out. and you know what? you are good in reading my mind. hah.

read this lovely lady’s ( Karen Chen ) blog just now and found this line which i really love![ Love is, above all else, the gift of oneself ]Hope you dont mind me quoting this line of yours from you. =) *thanks babe*

I’v been reading a lot lately, each and every friends’ blogs.
Not just one entry but at least 50% of all the entries that they have written.
browsing through all the pictures they posted up, flashed back all those memories.. sweet,sad,bitter ones..i think i’m losing a lot of my close friends now.
if you were to ask me, who is my bestest friend now, i would say.. no one. no one really knows whats on my mind, what am i up to etc. the incident that caused me to be a bit anti-close-friends because all the while they know whats going on in my life
(i was a really open person about my life)
all i wanted to do is to run away from them, rather stay at home the home month, not socializing at all even though i miss them terribly much. sigh. coz i was or i am still afraid, i don’t know what and why, i’m just afraid that through all those rumors and accusation,who would stand on my side? how would they see me? what will they say? how am i gonna face them? can i just smile and act like nth happened? can i be my own self again in front of them?
no i cant, i’m not good in pretending you see. thats why i chose to hide.
aahh, but at least NOW i wont burst in tears anymore.
coz i know, its all not worth a single drop of my tears. thats a good thing right? =)
and once again, knowing that some of you that are on my side, i’m grateful for that.

AAhh, you know what? who cares how people think of me,
if you really know adeline well, you will sure know what kind of person i really am.
those external factors would never effect our friendship.
to those i really miss,
cindy
(i wish i could talk to you again,i really do miss you)

abigail law
(i wish i could drive you out, i have tons of things to tell you,something to give you too)

timothy su
(i hope we could meet before you leave malaysia,thanks for the random calls and msgs)

ahsan
(thanks for being there for me whenever i needed you)

malcolm Eng
(i missed our meet up,i’m sorry i couldn’t make it,i miss the old days i had with you)

matthew Andrew yiiiii
( i havnt talk to you for soo long,but i guess abigail will update you abt me xD)

Annabel
( I miss talking to you,why i dont see you in church?)

Carissa Sammy
(thanks for all the sleepovers talking advices and prayers)

Joanne Lim
(thanks for the hug you gave me that day)

Jenny Chan
(thanks for the hugs you left in my chat box)

Karen Chen
(thanks for the msg you wrote to me)

Edward
(heard that you are leaving soon,i wish you all the very best in your future undertakings!)

Pauline Tay
(read ur blog, hope you are doing alright there, God bless girl =) stay strong )

and the list goes down..

its 2.40am right now, 8th July 2008.

a long entry eh? i didn’t plan to write this much actually.

ha ha.
im sleepy now

to be continue..

love,
adelinechen
xoxo

written by adelinecrystal

aah,enough of all the dramas.dont need to cry over spilled milk.its over and we are done with it.no point argueing and blaming each other.peace. 

written by adelinecrystal

[millions of ‘sorry’]

I am sorry. I know I’ve been really lazy in updating my blog now. And due to the weird pictures size in my blog’s setting (which I do not know how to edit) I’m kind of reluctant to upload pictures coz it is either too small or too big. Oh god, Jimmy Jimmy Jimmy please help me check the settings can? =)

[having a good life in KCH]

I’ve been in KCH for 10days already. Feeling lazy everyday. Pampered myself waking up at late hours (before11am) and do/eat/go anywhere I wish. I feel like I’m a grown up lady this time round, the way I see things has changed, I’m more mature in the sense of talking, doing things and making decisions. Mum and dad talk to me like an adult too (I think). LOL. I’m able to type letters for dad’s office documents, going to Banks to with mum to settle stuff and etc (mum always scold me coz I always do things slow and steady). For example, she pass me a cheque and drop me at a bank while she waits in the car. So I just take my time filing up the form and check through at least once or twice before putting in the cheque into the envelope and put it into the cheque deposit box. mum always shakes her head and say I cannot ‘cari makan’ if I continue do things like that, its not like I’m sitting for an exam or what. Things need to be done fast. But I know myself, hah, I like to take my time when I do things and make sure everything’s is alright. I don’t like to rush myself. aah, it’s just me. =) But I know when I need to be fast so don’t worry. 

[love]

baby gave me a few nice stuff from France to bring back for my family esp mummy. Heee. Yummy choc, tea, a botol of fine wine and sweets.LOL. brought back a few yummy stuff from melacca too for my brothers. =)

[shopping]

bought a few pieces of clothing from MNG sales. LOL. And bought 2 dress on the net. That was my first time e-shopping. Not so bad after all.LOL.

[my drama life]

Owh have I mention to u guys that I nearly can’t make it for my flight back to KCH last Wednesday? Hah. It was a very DRAMA day you know, just can’t stop laughing whenever I recall it. It was all baby’s fault. LOL. nola. Actually it wasn’t anyone’s fault. *Giggles* everything just went wrong, the timing, the jam, my mood. LOL. told you I was having my pms. LOL. Anyways, we made it at the airport just in time when the check-in counter was about to close. I was the last one who checked it, I rushed like a mad person, the airport was soo damn crowded and squeeze my way through the crowd. Ohya, plus the ‘toilet’ drama and the ‘flight’ drama thingy( if u wana know, can ask me personally, ver paishe to tell everyone here,hahaha). Woooww. HAH. It was really a dramatic day indeed.

[shocking good and bad news]

someone got together with the ex.LOL. yea, they are meant for each other . congrats to you both.

one of my friend is married, due to the accident he  the gf caused 10months ago. His wife just gave birth to a baby girl a few days ago. God bless them. He is one year older then me and the wife is my age if im nt mistaken. Young parents. 

My beloved sister in christ is pregnant, finally, 5 months. Congrats! =)

To a dear friend that I always cherish & pray for. I miss you. Congrats to you. You have finally got ur dream course. Continue to shine in ur new college life even though its not under Normah, Im still so happy and proud of you.you should be proud of yourself too. I know you have always wanted to be a nurse. You always look super good in nurse uniform. I still have our pics together in our uniform. =) Ur wish has been granted. Grab this opportunity and study hard. you will definitely do great there! i have faith in you =) you know, I saw you that day, waved at you but you didn’t look up.2 of your girlfriends saw me though and responded. Finally, after one and a half year, I finally get to see you, its good enough for me even though it’s from far. Still looking great, gorgeous. =) always love u as my sister no mater what happened. Looking forward to see you again my dear sis.

[friends and s0-called-friend]

Met my fellow EMPOWERED friends last Friday and met that heartbreaking bastard 2 days ago. LOL. Well, 7months has passed, I guess it is still hard to forgive and forget, but eventually, one day I believe that I will slowly forget but im sure I will never forgive. Not entirely tll the day he apologized and admit his wrongs in front of me personally. Which is impossible for him to do that.

knowing some of my friends are standing on my side. thats good enough for me, i’m thankful. thanks alot =) 

[useless me]

Had a mini accident yesterday afternoon, just in front of my house. LOL. Yea, I was driving. I volunteered to drive my mum to her office, ended up kena lectured. Feel so damn useless weii…Well, I guess I will never start driving. I don’t even know how to reverse the car properly. Kopi-O license indeed mum. i have no idea how can I pass my driving test one 20months ago. Sad case huh? *Sigh* there’s always extra cars in the house waiting for someone to drive it around. What to do, the 3 rd driver in the house is a useless driver. What a shame.

[holidayyy]

Im going to Bali for 6 days 5nights next week. Weeeeee!! Can’t wait for it! Haha. With my dad, mum, 2 brothers, grandma(dad’s side) and another guy cousin(sukma wushu guy aka future famous CHEF). Im gonna shop for beautiful dresses! Wear my bikini for the very first time! View the beautiful sunrise and sunset! And I heard there will be dolphinsss! =) mum been there with her friends, we’ll tour around Bali. wee!! hahaaa. Im so damn excited right now. Need to get my body in shape for the beach! LOL! *Winks*

I’m fying to SIBU tooooo a week after the Bali trip. One week stay there. =)

[bloggers meet]

im really sorry.I cant attend the KUCHING blogger meet. I didn’t know that my parents are making plans for the Bali trip. I will be in Bali that day that’s why I couldn’t make it for the special event. Looking forward for the pictures and post form u guys! =) have fun!!

[college life & student council]

I got the PR (public relation) leader post for my college’s student council’s board. Chaman is the Mr.President. LOL. so dot play play. LOL. I missed a few events happening in college now. The pool BBQ party,the yamcha, the ‘green day’, incoming orientations, prom night preparations, latin dance class. Owh! Kenneth(my latin partner) is happily enjoying his life there in US. He told me the sales there are really crazy! Ahha. Happy shopping/working/eating/playing there dearie! =) remember to bring the air back for me.LOL. I’ve forgotten the steps for our latin dance. Haha.

[cooking]

Bought a lot of laksa paste gonna cook laksa this Sunday for my family. (Brothers are excited, so am i. HAH) FIRST TIME. Laksa. Next week I will try to prepare tomato kueh tiaw. Heheee. Then then maybe I wana try to cook kueh chap too. My top3 yummy favorite food. Want to cook for baby if everything goes well, before that a few trials in KCH first, HAH. Ohya, I wana make sushi too for the first time too. LOL. =) been cooking a lot at home, in charge of the lunch and dinner at home for the family. Hehe. That is why I need to wake up latest at 11am every weekdays coz need to prepare lunch for brothers before they head to school. 

[parents]

sent them off to the airport this afternoon, they flew to KL for medical check up with my aunt and my cousins. Im going for the medical check up myself when im back in KL. Save up the air tickets and can accompany my 2 little brothers at home. Prepare meals for them too. =) parents coming back home tmr night though. =)

signing off now. Sleepy dy. =)

love,

adelineeeee

written by adelinecrystal

this is how i look like now. LOL. one word-vain. haha. oh well, i’m going out with baby and his 3 other KL friends tonight.just dressed up, writing this entry now to kill the time. =)

goshed.you know what? i’m having that kinda mix feeling again and damn i hate my mood swing. pms. sigh. =(

I’m flying back to KCH tomorrow, yea thats right. Tomorrow. 25th June 08. goshed, i’m gonna miss my friends here especially baby. we bought the happy sim card that enables us to talk long hours with the maximum charge of 99cents per call. very worth it eh? so check it out on the website couples! =)

watched “Get Smart” with baby last night. it was hilarious. we had popcorn too. LOLx. not bad after all =)and we watched “no reservations” too on the laptop just now after lunch. its a nice movie, some part made me cried, e.i:when the little girl lost her mother in the car accident =(

hmm, what else to share? owh well baby is going to send me back to KL to pack and then he will drive me all the way up to the airport tomorrow for my flight, sweet isn’t he? =) owh ya! i went to church last sunday with baby and his mum.

p/s: to the anonymous and boom in my chatbox, 4 weeks at the banner means 28 days actually, not one month.LOL. try to take 7days x 4 weeks = 28days. see? =)

and for your information, tomorrow is our  4th month anniversary. =)

signing off now. i will be in KCH then for my next entry

*hugs and kissess*

love,

adeline 

written by adelinecrystal

thanks baby for the ice blended mango juice

Girlsssss!

MNG having SALES now!

go go gooo!!

 XoXo

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watched kungfu panda @ GSC Mahkota parade last night,wanted to go for the 9.40pm show but it was full already when we got there around 9pm.so we end up buying the 11.55pm show. the hall was full too so we were force to take the side+2 row from the screen seats.LOL. well, it doesnt matter coz the movie was really good. we laughed like no ones business throughout the entire movie.LOL.uhm, so yeah baby bought the 11.55 pm movie tix, we had almost 3 hours to spare so we went down to mini mph to look for a fathers’ day present for baby’s dad. baby wana get his dad a book. =)  after that, we drove out coz i was craving for ‘tong shui’. at first i don’t understand why baby wana dapao our tong shui, he told me that we are going to visit his uncle so we can have our tong shui there at his place. i was kinda  convinced but sad coz i cant have it there on the spot. Due to the jam, i started complaining coz i can feel the ice are melting and he is been driving for like 15 mins already. Then you know what? baby smiled at me and told me that he is bringing me to the beach!!! LOL! i was like, huh? are u serious??!! haha, u can’t imagine how excited i was, feel like dancing in the car dy.LOL and so, we had our tong shui at the beach, it was so beautiful, there was families,kids, couples, church youth camp going on and some people fishing. we walked on the sand and took some pictures. LOL. i thank baby for the night. =) we plan to bring wine, and some food for our next trip there. heee. 

Happy Fathers’ Day!!! 

woke up around 11 this morning and got ready for Father’s Day High Tea @ Legacy Melaka with baby’s parents. had some fun eating, talking and laughing.Michelle msged saying that she miss me already.LOL.and Jia yii and i are going to sing k tmr together with her sister. yeahhh!! heard that its RM5 per hour per room.LOL. so damn cheap ah. haha.anyways, gtg, wana continue reading my book. =)  i have the feeling that baby is going to bring me out tonight as he is busy with the house painting with his dad during the day. sshh, i don’t think he reads my blog. LOL. LOVE,adeline.. 

written by adelinecrystal

what a stupid title. LOL. i have no idea what to put. so please excuse me. LOL. alright, i’v promised myself that today i will write out a proper entry about my life right now and maybe a bit of the past and the future or maybe a little bit of reflection about myself. came out with this idea when i was bathing just now *goshed, the weather is super duper hot*

so here i am lying on my bed composing this entry.

well, i check my blog more than 5 times a day,99% of the time i’v failed to create a new entry. write, erase, write.. save as draft.. continue writing.. end up deleting it *sigh* I’m just so out of words. i can’t blog like before anymore, i miss the times when i can just blah everything here in this public blog of mine,entertain my readers and keep them updated everyday.i can even write a few entries in a day or at least one a day about my life. its like a routine already.

SO i will force myself to express a small part of myself today in this entry. coz as time goes by, i slowly realize that i often fail to express myself in words. i don’t express myself so much anymore. i have so much to say, so much to share, so much to complain about, so much to explain… but they just kept repeating themselves in my mind as my mouth refuse to speak them out. yayayaa, i know what you are thinking- its all in my mind, i’m the one who is in control of my mouth,sigh,yes, i know that and i did tried but words just cant seems to squeeze out from my mouth* and nowadays i often say the wrong thing. baby kind of *lecture* me on that 2 nights ago. because my words,which i didn’t mean it, constantly indirectly and directly hurt him a lot these few days.

We had a heart to heart talk then, hmm, ei no no no, its more to he talk and i listen session. but i don’t think he was happy coz he said ‘ you will only make things worst if you don’t express myself’ SO i did talk a little. still remain silent most of the time though as words just cant seems to come out from my mouth. Just constantly nodding my head and secretly pray that he will forgive and forget the things that I’v said me there and then.coz i know, if i were to be in his shoe, i will be hurt too.

i’v learnt so much from him,indeed he is a mature thinking guy.i feel like I’m so young and so immature whenever he correct my bad, in proper and loving ways of course *winks* he always has his own ways to make me listen and understand things that he said. and Im really impressed by his everything , not everything but almost.. everything .. so yeah, he is my man. * yeah i know, i’m easily being impressed, but THIS is different* =)

i watched “ps i love you” last night, Mr.Bf had a terrible headache so i gave him a massage while watching the movie THEN he fell asleep half way.lol. so ended up, i watched the movie alone. i cried so so hard throughout the whole movie though i know what’s gonna happen and stuff yet i still failed to control my tears from flowing. and uhm..i wouldn’t say its a great movie coz to be frank, i didn’t really like it. BUT BUT seriously the book itself is really GREAT! worth reading. aaahh, anyways, i have been reading a lot these days, blogs,newspapers, books as i have nothing to do at home(correction: baby’s place). i finished a book Cecelia Ahern- If only you could see me now. and currently i’m reading her new book- Thanks for the memories. =)

thanks to abigail babe. I get to know this wonderful author,Cecelia Ahern, few years back when i was in Form4 through her (she borrowed me the ps i love you). do you remember those times babe? =) i miss you.i always laugh whenever i read ur entries,seeing the things u wrote and the silly funny pictures u posted up.LOL. cant wait to see you dearie and ahsan them too , heee . xoxo. =)

watched Prom night and it was not as good as i expected it to be. disappointment.TOTALLY. Its not worth watching. don’t like the story line and the sound system was really bad in malacca’s cinema. i missed “ONCE” movie though, it an international movie shown in GSC KL, but i didn’t managed to watch it due to some reason. sad sad.

owh, right! i changed my status in facebook, finally.lol. most of my contacts noticed it.lol. =) 

Uhhmm, apart from reading, i did managed to do some cooking and helped out with some of the housework too =) i cooked few rounds of barley drink and green beans for the family due to the hot weather in malacca and a complete set of dinner for the family. Baby has been bringing me around malacca for  yummy food. i was shocked to know that there is still a RM1.50 nasi lemak stall. its really yummy and the portion is just nice for a girl’s stomach.haha. u can have a meal here for less then Rm3 including drinks if you know where to eat. LOL. still trying all the yummy foods, famous dim sum, kuih muih etc..i think i’v gained some weight now *faints*

Baby surprise me by making a facial appointment for me 2 days ago. He did mentioned about it few times before that but i didn’t really bother coz i though my face is good enough. mana tahu he really went to make an appointment for me. *sweetness* That was my very first time going for this kind of facial treatment. LOL. u wana know how does it feel? ahh, PAIN. LOL. the lady say that i have a lot of big black heads *i don’t even realize it myself* haaa. the whole facial process thingy lasted for 2 hours.i dozed off a few times coz i was really relaxing after they squeezed out the black heads for you. After the facial, i’v been thinking- i will be 20 next year, so think its time for me to take my face more seriously before its too late.owh, did i tell u guys that i bought a set of KOSE product a week ago in KL? it cost me around RM400+ *half-pengsan* actually there’s nth wrong with my face, i just need to maintain it. lol.  

There’s gonna be a Farewell poolside BBQ party organized by Eddison (organizer of RAVE party) this sunday.. and i’m going to miss it as i’m in malacca right now. sobs. well, what to do, its my choice. anways, U guys have fun la ya? i will wait for the pictures!! heee. 

i always ask myself, am i a materialistic person? i mean, do we girls aim for rich guys who could afford to satisfy my material needs? a person who take the bills wherever we go, buy me expensive stuff and etc. ahh, i’m just a middle class young teenage girl who recently goes for some little , not-so-expensive branded stuff like ROXY handbags and slippers, Anna Sui’s cosmetic, Carlorino’s purse and heels etc..lol. i stillll secretly wish for my burberry handbag though. Well,i always tell myself that its not the time yet.i havn’t even got my first pay check. i still can control myself over this issue. BUT seeing those girls who are much younger wearing/holding LV,Gucci,Burberry hadbags and stuff to college really *tooot* me off. they are like 16? 17? 18? ahaa. damn lucky girls.

uhm, okie, back to the point.. girls, how do you feel if ur BF told you that ” if you wana go for all those branded, high end material stuff, then i think you are with the wrong person right now.i couldn’t meet your standard and i will definitely disappoint you” how will u react? (Disclaimer: this is nth personal, its just a question) 

phew.i’m going off for dinner now, baby’s mum cooking. most probably going out for a movie tonight, yeahhh! been at home for the whole day, stupid MSN not working. tried to sign in for millions of times but failed, i don’t knw why. sigh. 

i wana go to the zoo, i wana go to the beach…lallallaa. baby’s busy painting the house with his dad whole day. he got darker now, more manly. LOL. oh well,its okie.. i just have to wait then. I have plenty of time. =)

love,

adeline 

written by adelinecrystal