a slight changes
I’v changed [Miracles in Mind] to [ Miracles in reality]
and i’v change a bit of the tag line too.
this is because i’v came to a point..a point when i finally realized that i DO need miracles in my real life(reality)not just in my mind. i crave for more miracles now. you know, its possible. just believe and have faith. you will experience it yourself, the miracles around you.
meeting my boyfriend was a wonderful miracle itself. its a testimonial to share.
till now.. it is still a miracle for us. the feeling, is special. none of us expect to meet each other and got together in such a short period of time. none of us expect that to happen in our life. we met, on the day he was having his farewell party with close friends,2 days before he leaves to France and i was only on my short trip to Melaka.
it was like a fairy tale story said baby,his mum agreed.
he was like the prince who came for the rescue when i was in the darkest side of my world. when i wasnt looking at my best.
when i was entirely heart broken.
when i was losing hope in love.
he appeared right in front of me.
like an angel.
Hold me tight when i was feeling insecure.
promise that he will be there for me no matter what happens.
telling me that ‘its alright’ when things goes wrong.
comforted me when i was crying half dead on the phone when he was in france 2 month ago. telling me that its not right to judge people.
correct me whenever i do wrong.
make me laugh like no ones business.
and most importantly,
he is always sensitive enough to know my flows,
patient enough to listen to my craps.
aah, communication is really important in the relationship.
we both agree on that.
owh, wait a second,baby reminded me of that actually.
coz i was kind of sick of talking, explanation and making my partner understand due to my past relationship. sigh it was a mess. total mess without communication. ah well, its over now. i’m seriously glad it is.
thanks baby for reminding me all that.
and..hey baby, just want to tell you that i really thank God for having you in my life right now. thanks for loving me as who i am. you know me well inside out. and you know what? you are good in reading my mind. hah.
read this lovely lady’s ( Karen Chen ) blog just now and found this line which i really love![ Love is, above all else, the gift of oneself ]Hope you dont mind me quoting this line of yours from you. =) *thanks babe*
I’v been reading a lot lately, each and every friends’ blogs.
Not just one entry but at least 50% of all the entries that they have written.
browsing through all the pictures they posted up, flashed back all those memories.. sweet,sad,bitter ones..i think i’m losing a lot of my close friends now.
if you were to ask me, who is my bestest friend now, i would say.. no one. no one really knows whats on my mind, what am i up to etc. the incident that caused me to be a bit anti-close-friends because all the while they know whats going on in my life
(i was a really open person about my life)
all i wanted to do is to run away from them, rather stay at home the home month, not socializing at all even though i miss them terribly much. sigh. coz i was or i am still afraid, i don’t know what and why, i’m just afraid that through all those rumors and accusation,who would stand on my side? how would they see me? what will they say? how am i gonna face them? can i just smile and act like nth happened? can i be my own self again in front of them?
no i cant, i’m not good in pretending you see. thats why i chose to hide.
aahh, but at least NOW i wont burst in tears anymore.
coz i know, its all not worth a single drop of my tears. thats a good thing right? =)
and once again, knowing that some of you that are on my side, i’m grateful for that.
AAhh, you know what? who cares how people think of me,
if you really know adeline well, you will sure know what kind of person i really am.
those external factors would never effect our friendship.
to those i really miss,
cindy
(i wish i could talk to you again,i really do miss you)
abigail law
(i wish i could drive you out, i have tons of things to tell you,something to give you too)
timothy su
(i hope we could meet before you leave malaysia,thanks for the random calls and msgs)
ahsan
(thanks for being there for me whenever i needed you)
malcolm Eng
(i missed our meet up,i’m sorry i couldn’t make it,i miss the old days i had with you)
matthew Andrew yiiiii
( i havnt talk to you for soo long,but i guess abigail will update you abt me xD)
Annabel
( I miss talking to you,why i dont see you in church?)
Carissa Sammy
(thanks for all the sleepovers talking advices and prayers)
Joanne Lim
(thanks for the hug you gave me that day)
Jenny Chan
(thanks for the hugs you left in my chat box)
Karen Chen
(thanks for the msg you wrote to me)
Edward
(heard that you are leaving soon,i wish you all the very best in your future undertakings!)
Pauline Tay
(read ur blog, hope you are doing alright there, God bless girl =) stay strong )
and the list goes down..
its 2.40am right now, 8th July 2008.
a long entry eh? i didn’t plan to write this much actually.
ha ha.
im sleepy now
to be continue..
love,
adelinechen
xoxo
he says she says