Jul 16
Im back from Bali !!!!
Jul 05
aah,enough of all the dramas.dont need to cry over spilled milk.its over and we are done with it.no point argueing and blaming each other.peace.
Apr 17
Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss? This is because the most beautiful things in the world are unseen.
We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours,we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.
There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched their lives.
A great love.. It’s when you shed tears and still you care for him, it’s when he ignores you and still you long for him. It’s when he begins to love another and yet you still smile and say I’m happy for you.
If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies,you never have to die with it. The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall.
Somehow along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you’ve made.
A true friend understands when you say, I forgot, waits forever when you say, just a minute, stays when you say leave me alone, opens the door even before you knock and says can I come in?
Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.
It’s more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever.
In love, very rarely do we win but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself. There comes a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that they’d be happier if we let go.
It’s best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that’s available.
Best to wait for the one you love than one who is around. Best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone. Sometimes the one you love turns out to be the one who hurts you the most, and sometimes the friend who takes you into his arms and cries when you cry turns out to be the love you never knew you wanted.
If you really love someone never let go, don’t believe that letting go means that you love best, instead fight for your love,that’s what true love is.
Laugh to your heart’s content; got this from a friend’s blog, which he got it from a friend of him too.
i would like to share this with u all,
hope he wont mind.
you cannot go through life without it
Apr 17
its 7 in the morning, and here i am writing this entry thinking what should and what shouldn’t i write here. writing used to be my one and only effective way to express myself .
i wrote to my parents whenever i argued with them,its good i think but the sad part is-i never have the guts to pass it to them,i threw pages and pages of letters away after writing it.
i wrote to someone too on his 18th birthday,it supposed to be sweet coz it was the first letter and guess what? i was told not to do it again coz its a waste of time reading it. he don’t have the spare time to read a stupid 2 letter because he was too busy, kononnya.
it hurts so much.
i don’t even bother for any replies, i just wish that the person that i wrote to appreciate what i have written in the letter.
i used to write emails to my mum too for quite sometime. at least she do reply each and every mail i sent. i wrote to Jade and Jamie and they do appreciate it and Jade even replies me.
do you know that it means so much to me?
most of the time people tend to take others for granted, they tend to forget what others have done for them
and how much scarification they have made, how much tears ,
how much pain they have been through for them
- in conclusion, most of us are lack of appreciation.
its getting hard to write when you know that people that are close to you, people that you meet everyday in life,
people that knows you but you don’t even know who are them,
people that you are forever disappointed in, people that hope that they will never appear in your life to read your blog..
it feels so weird when sometimes one side of me wish that people will read the things that i have wrote
and another side of me wish that no one will ever notice the existence of my blog.
sometimes fear stops me from writing the true voice of my heart. it is fear indeed. fear of people’s judgement,
fear that people will know more then they should,fear that people will talk, fear to offend others..
GOSHED. what the hell, this is my blog, i have the right to write whatever i wish to.
im acting like a confused kid now.
OMG.
i was sick for the past 2 days. my body temperature went up to 39.4′c on monday night, managed to drag myself to class the next day and for the Amazing Factor’s meeting during lunch hour. skipped my afternoon class and went home at 1pm, fainted in bed right after i had my own cooked plain porridge and woke up around 7pm.My body temperature was still around 38.8, the dizziness, horrible body ache, the feeling like wana puke really drive me crazy. went to look for all the medicine that i took from the hospital last month and decided to take them coz the symptoms are similar. My housemates said that the medicine might be a bit too heavy for me but at the end i still consume it (with fear).
felt so much better the next day,my bodytemperature went down to 36.7 so i managed to attend the morning class and was active for the whole amazing factor event till 6pm, did the clean up with the other Sc members and we had a feedback meeting till 8.20pm. i did managed to prevent myself from vomitng by eating sweets and ’som boi’ for the whole day and drinking lots of water, reached home and had indo mee with the seaweed + carrot soup (prepared by my housemates) at 9.10pm-my dinner. felt worst and kept wanting to puke coz of the oiliness of the indo mee. checked my body temperature and found out that it went up to 38.6 again. so i took those medicines again and went off to bed. am feeling much better now but my stomach don’t feels right now. went to toilet for 3 times in the past one hour, had the ORS(oral rehydration salts) and Glukosa to prevent myself from dehydrated again.
i have class from 9 to 3.30pm today. should i go? or should i just stay at home and rest?
no matter how hard you tired to explain,
no matter how hard you tried to approached them in many ways..
somehow,
they will still wouldn’t understand what you have been through
andwhat you are going through now..
people just don’t understand,
they never will.some people can just forget the awful things that they have done to others
and continue their ‘happy’ life as if nothing had happened before,
i do not understand why dosome people still have to face,the guts
to praise and worship God when their mind is thinking on how to hurt that poor little someone,
some people are meant to be called bastard for the rest of their life.
[ this statement is referring to one person ]
yes,i have to admit that i have no right to judge a person
but i still believe that the wicked will get what they deserved someday,somehow..
its just the matter of time
so think twice before you hurt someone.
the wound may be healed , but the scars will remain forever.
with limited love,
[too little love to give away this time]
Apr 14
I’v given up the chance to be the host of a big event in college today. the reason being is-i lost the excitement,
the passion. now feeling a little sad but relief. i was once excited and really seriously looking forward to it,
but not now anymore. i just cant wait for it to end.
its dragging everyone down. really hope that everything will turn out fine,
cant wait for the RAVE party though, that sounds more exciting. =)
oh, and i have learnt to say no to people today,too much work load.
i cant stress myself to the max to please others. i have my own date lines to meet and finals too to prepare. i may be capable in doing things but i’m not a superwoman. Mum said that i have made a great decision.
=) yea, i’m glad i did.
i am going to stop wearing my contact lens for a while. my eyes were red
and it is painful even when i’m wearing my specs at home.
went to watch the football match yesterday with Joanne and her cousin , Man U won! heee.
then slept at 4am coz i need to key in all the participants details into my laptop.
40 teams with 5-6 members each so there will be at least 220 participant for that event.
the group photo of the student council member after the April orientation.
It all went well, new students had so much fun, so as us SC members.
It was a great success. thanks to Chaman for his professional leadership.
with love..
Apr 11
msgs starts cuming in before 6am this morning,non-stop.regarding this n that,meeting here and that..
i was in bed from 2 till 9 am but if u ask me did i sleep well for the full 7 hours? i will say definitely no.
maybe 2-3 hours sleep and thats it, every time when i was bout to fall into my dreamland, msgs will wake me up.
i feel like switching off both of my phone but i cant, sigh coz what if there is emergency calls from my family back in my hometown, from baby or friends? like i’v said.
it started bad,cant wait for it to end. im exhausted and sad to say but im actually kinda sick of it already.. i had a nightmare 2 nights ago about it. see, how stressful and how worried am i now about that event. hope everything will turn out fine.
busy and pack schedule for more then 2 weeks. everyday reach home around 5-6 pm.
physically and emotionally tired, hungry , stress and worries conquer my entire brain..
i was glad that i managed to reach home at 3.30 pm yesterday right after my class.
3 weeks to go to complete both my UK coursework.
do i have enough time to complete them professionally?
Goshed,how i wish i can throw everything aside and get full concentration on my work.
have to get ready to college now,
today is the last day of the booth(hope marketers will do well for the last day)
then latin class with the new members,heard that we gonna start teaching the new ones basic latin
( i dun even feel like dancing already) ,
and meetings.
i will leave college before 3.30pm.i must and i will no matter what.
going for a movie with my babe and do some shopping to distress before going to church.
aaw.i have been craving for popcorn since last night,
so i SHALL get one large set later. nyeks.=)
with love..
Apr 06
I was surprise to see the comment left by my mum in the previous ‘emo’ entry. hahaa. just talked to her on the phone, as usual i BLAH everything out to her about my life here in KL. things about the weird noise going on in my place, housemates on holiday, ai shan cooked her for us, events in student council, my courseworks, me gaining weight etc. HAHA.
Talked to baby this morning, he has new french friends there already,im so happy for him. =) skype last night was great. manage to catch up and it was so sweet. =)
Last Friday’s latin class was cancelled due to the April orientation’s meeting, ICP(amazing factor) and May graduation party meetings. it rained heavily that day, called my mum outside the library and talked to her in tears. my mind and tears will be out of my control when i’m stress, thats typical me. i cant handle my stress and i will be a terrible person when i am really really stress. sigh. i just cant help it. thats why i hate myself when i’m stress. im sorry if i offended anyone these days. i sorry. =(
cooked a full set of dinner for my 4 other housemates. marinated chicken, steam egg and 2 different vegetables while Ai Shan prepared the chicken ABC soup ( cooked for at least 5 hours) and Yen Ru prepared the fried taufu with carrots and meat. it was a GREAT dinner. But i was exhausted at the end of the day and slept early that night.
I took a cab to one Utama for AMAZING FACTOR’s committee meeting with ONG and Ricky the next morning. The gentleman paid for the texsi fare. hahaha. anyways, we meet up with the rest of the commitees - Cheryl, Sim, Edison and Yee Wen @ Carls Junior. i had a huge set of burger and fries that day. spent RM 19 on that set. Expenisve BUT YUMMY YUMMY. *winks we were there from 11pm till 5pm. hahaa. drinks refillable ma. and ONG did lots of magic tricks, i was really impressed. =) anyways, the programs for that event are really challenging and FUN. i love all of their ideas and plans. seriously hope that the participants will enjoy it to the fullest. Pray for a good outcome so that the student council ’s reputation/SPIRIT can be revive once again. FOR A CHANGE. i will be the host of the day. pray that i am able to keep the spirit in them throughout the whole event.
And today, i started off my day terribly. cried 3 rounds due to some problem. someone called me when i was asleep and told me a shocking news. i was already in tears. msged baby and we talked on the phone. I was crying so hard but he managed to comfort me and made me laugh. After alot of crying, i went down to cook indo mee for myself coz i was starving. Told Ai shan about the news and once again i was in tears. 3 rounds. =)
had a ice cream just now after lunch and it cheered me up a little. took a nap and got ready for church service.
BUT u knw what really cheered me up today? hee.
* u will never get it correct if u were ask to guess*
it is the part when i take my time to have my shower, and dress myself up. the process .
i am happy and i love myself when i smell nice.
i love myself the most when i am well dressed.
dressing up really can make me happy. =)
thats is why i really dress myself up every morning.
Gave Carissa a box of Rocky(chocolate flavor) and a bar of Kit Kat Crunch. **YummY Yum Yum** coz she is super Stress with her assignments too. hahahaha.
heard that Neways fees are getting more and more expensive now. hmph. now go sing K at least Rm18++ per head. sigh. everything getting expensive liao. so sien. That is why we rather have our meals at home, we do cook a lot at home these days, really save a lot of money. =) GOOD. i’m on budget now for this 3 months. Since the day most of the housemates are on their semester break, the house is FINALLY CLEAN and QUIET. BUT the bad news is they are coming back this weekend. sigh. a house is not gonna be like a house anymore when they are back. more like a design student’s studio or garbage place.
i made a new notice board for myself, stick it on my wall already. hee. *satisfied* i’ll show u guys the pics of my room one day. =)
There will be a Orientation tmr. woootss~ im one of the group leader that leads the new intakes for the orientation’s game. i feel so sorry for those who are going to be in my group tmr coz i don’t think i can lead them to win all the station games. LOL. anyways, i will make sure that they all have fun, that is more important. =) feeling excited now. weee~
some pictures edited by myself last night. miss my Jade and Jamie a lot.
and i found this 2 pictures in kelly’s page.
*try to spot me* hee.
thats all for now.
with love,
XOXO
Apr 01
it has been a busy BUSY busy super STRESS stress stress TIRING tiring HOT HOT HOT HOT STUFFY day today!
*pheewwwww!*
something really interesting happened today. haaaH. read on. =)
i woke up this morning feeling TERRIBLY hungry, make myself a cup of Oat drink before going to college (before 9am). Class ended at 1 pm and i rushed for the 12pm meeting, organize the forms, notice and other documents. Trying hard to promote the activities around cafeteria area and got to know a lot of new friends. hmm.
anyways, i ended up at the main office with 2 other friends around 3.30pm and you guys know what did i asked them?
i was like hugging my thick books and file asking them ” why am i feeling so hungry now ah? so weird..”
then 3 of us looked at each other, both of them were like “ oh, u havnt had your lunch yet ar?”and at the same time i was like ” OH! i havnt had my lunch LAH! “ lolsss!!
we all bursted in laughter and Alyssa accompany me to hunt for food. i TOTALLY forgot about wanting to have my lunch after class before doing all my work, no wonder i was feeling weird.
HAHA! until now im still thinking and wondering how can i forgt about that? wow. first time in my life. reached home around 5pm, have a little chat with my housemates(in person) and abigail(through msn, thanks for the song girl!) and start doing my research for my coursework till now( 12.40am).AhDen sent a pic of us through MMS, haha, Timothy took our pic when we were at his/ah lost’s place during CNY visiting.
went to banana leaf for my dinner just now with the 3 other girls and i saw GANESH! i was so surprise when he told me that he actually take a cab to KDU and walk back home everyday! he lives a few houses away from my house. HAHA, i was like “i salute u man! ” hahaha! he said that KDU is quite crowded, thats why he don’t really like it and he still prefers KBU, aawww…Ganesh, i knw u read my blog sometime, move back with us then! samuel and maybe UB will be glad to have u back, at least u can accompany UB when he is alone! hahahaha! wish u all the best pal!
=)
Im satisfied with the research that i have done today, hee. this is the last month of my class, 4 weeks to go and i’ll have my study break, FINAL and summer holiday! yeah! i will most probably / MAYBE do my internship at Joescher’s company for 3 months. IF i pass the interview. well, he is the boss.. we’ll see how. i think he reads my blog too. Hi hi there!! =) LOLx!
Carissa and i communicate through msn’s personal msg just now. LOLs! the friends that have our both accounts will knw what we were talking about. hahahah! MOVIES? Boon feng didnt join us though, he prefer send me msg through msn instead. HAHA! he felt sien coz he cant nudge me.lols! but i ‘poke’ him though.
i told Carissa that i fell down from my house’s staircase again just now and she believed it. hahahah!
HAPPY APRIL FOOL PEOPLE!!
HAVE FUN kacau-ing ppl around u!
BUT remember, u guys must have limits yah!
=)
shu wei didnt fall for my trick though when i shouted ” shu wei, ur bf is here arh! ” hahahhaa.she also played along. chicken. hahahahha!
Msn Jia Yi to tell her that she was in the STAR newspaper yesterday,some random ppl caught her in action. HAHA! she feel for it! lols!anyways..
i shall continue tmr.. be prepared my fellow coursemates..
*winks
OH YA!
KBU’s OPERATION FREEZE !!
i will try to snap some “interesting” pictures when the design students are in the FREEZE action.
hahaha!
and
i SHALL kacau some of my friends
..hiaks hiaks..
it wil be very interesting and so much FUN!
HaPPy DAy !
HavE Fun!!
xoxo
with love,
Mar 31
Had our dinner at NEIGHBORHOOD around Damansara area after the church service.
When we were on the way home, the idea to catch a movie before going home just came out of no where.
IT WAS SO RANDOM. haha.
with Nai Lin’s ‘2 movies for 1′ card, 6 of us went to watch THE SPIDERWICK CHRONICLES for RM30 ONLY. that means RM5 per head! =D
we spent an hour in MPH while waiting for the time.
the Movie is great! its so worth it.
The girls before movie
5 of us and the camera guy =)
Carissa and i after the movie
reached home around midnight..
guess we were exhausted mainly because we all went crazy and laughed really hard all night. =)
great day indeed.
30.3.2008.
Mar 30
i spent hours looking through the pictures that i took in 2007.Thank God i managed to burn them into a dvd before my laptop died by lightning strike the day before my 19th birthday. yea, it was horrible. but come to think of that, if not because of lightning, i would not have my macbook here with me now. =) even though my previous laptop is only 1 year old. *ahahaa. oh wells.
Oh,i was saying about the pictures. yea, they brings lots of memories. i keep them in different files, a new folder for every month, a different folder for different event, a different folder for different group of friends. i am glad that i took all those pictures, it captured each and ever precious moment i had with every single friend around me especially my babes and buddies. i can still be able to recall ” when, where and what were we doing” when we took all of those pictures.
yea, i am a very detail person. haah. almost a perfectionist as well.
aaww..i miss having long hair..=) i shall keep my hair long..lols.
its 3 in the morning
30th March 2008.
a special day for someone special.
Happy birthday sweetheart!!!
lots of love,
he says she says