Miracles in Mind

OMG!!

Dear and i

Just won

Rm500 Cash

From FlyFM

a moment ago!

[11:43pm, 15th August 08′]

we participated the Fly Fm’s Music Moolah

sent 12 of sms ( each Rm0.50)

and you know what?!

Fly FM literally called right after i sent the last sms!

my dear was on the air!

HAHAAHAHA

he goes….(refer to the below pic)

HAHAHHAHAHA

“aawwwww…”

i dreamt that we are going to win 2k for the contest last night

YES! IM SERIOUS! IT WAS IN MY DREAM.

told my dear this morning abt the dream and we laughed

and

we really won,

But not 2 k lah,

rm500!

hahaha

good enough already!

=)

you know right, before i sent the second last msg, i was like telling my dear that i wont spend the money if we won it.

and when the DJs asked us the send in the msgs right now coz they are going to call the lucky winner, i was like holding my phone,thinking whether to forward the msg again or not.

me: dear, should i send the msg now ah, they are going to call now oh, how arh? if i send now,

and IF IF they call, cannot get through how? * with a wide smile*

dear: *laughs* u just send la, other ppl send hundreds of msgs also cannot get * continue laughing*

me: oklaa * send the msg*

-after 3 seconds-

received a call +03….

quickly pass the phone to my dear who was sitting right next to me, and they started talking ! LOL

HAhAH.

super drama right?!

couldnt belive it at first.

ahah

dear’s first reaction was like asking the DJs

‘ You must be jokking right?’

LOL

and he told the Djs about my dream too

*walalalal*

Oh Man!

its like a dream come true!

LOL

with love

=)

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: happiness, Love

thanks baby for the ice blended mango juice

Girlsssss!

MNG having SALES now!

go go gooo!!

 XoXo

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: Love

watched kungfu panda @ GSC Mahkota parade last night,wanted to go for the 9.40pm show but it was full already when we got there around 9pm.so we end up buying the 11.55pm show. the hall was full too so we were force to take the side+2 row from the screen seats.LOL. well, it doesnt matter coz the movie was really good. we laughed like no ones business throughout the entire movie.LOL.uhm, so yeah baby bought the 11.55 pm movie tix, we had almost 3 hours to spare so we went down to mini mph to look for a fathers’ day present for baby’s dad. baby wana get his dad a book. =)  after that, we drove out coz i was craving for ‘tong shui’. at first i don’t understand why baby wana dapao our tong shui, he told me that we are going to visit his uncle so we can have our tong shui there at his place. i was kinda  convinced but sad coz i cant have it there on the spot. Due to the jam, i started complaining coz i can feel the ice are melting and he is been driving for like 15 mins already. Then you know what? baby smiled at me and told me that he is bringing me to the beach!!! LOL! i was like, huh? are u serious??!! haha, u can’t imagine how excited i was, feel like dancing in the car dy.LOL and so, we had our tong shui at the beach, it was so beautiful, there was families,kids, couples, church youth camp going on and some people fishing. we walked on the sand and took some pictures. LOL. i thank baby for the night. =) we plan to bring wine, and some food for our next trip there. heee. 

Happy Fathers’ Day!!! 

woke up around 11 this morning and got ready for Father’s Day High Tea @ Legacy Melaka with baby’s parents. had some fun eating, talking and laughing.Michelle msged saying that she miss me already.LOL.and Jia yii and i are going to sing k tmr together with her sister. yeahhh!! heard that its RM5 per hour per room.LOL. so damn cheap ah. haha.anyways, gtg, wana continue reading my book. =)  i have the feeling that baby is going to bring me out tonight as he is busy with the house painting with his dad during the day. sshh, i don’t think he reads my blog. LOL. LOVE,adeline.. 

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: happiness, Love

what a stupid title. LOL. i have no idea what to put. so please excuse me. LOL. alright, i’v promised myself that today i will write out a proper entry about my life right now and maybe a bit of the past and the future or maybe a little bit of reflection about myself. came out with this idea when i was bathing just now *goshed, the weather is super duper hot*

so here i am lying on my bed composing this entry.

well, i check my blog more than 5 times a day,99% of the time i’v failed to create a new entry. write, erase, write.. save as draft.. continue writing.. end up deleting it *sigh* I’m just so out of words. i can’t blog like before anymore, i miss the times when i can just blah everything here in this public blog of mine,entertain my readers and keep them updated everyday.i can even write a few entries in a day or at least one a day about my life. its like a routine already.

SO i will force myself to express a small part of myself today in this entry. coz as time goes by, i slowly realize that i often fail to express myself in words. i don’t express myself so much anymore. i have so much to say, so much to share, so much to complain about, so much to explain… but they just kept repeating themselves in my mind as my mouth refuse to speak them out. yayayaa, i know what you are thinking- its all in my mind, i’m the one who is in control of my mouth,sigh,yes, i know that and i did tried but words just cant seems to squeeze out from my mouth* and nowadays i often say the wrong thing. baby kind of *lecture* me on that 2 nights ago. because my words,which i didn’t mean it, constantly indirectly and directly hurt him a lot these few days.

We had a heart to heart talk then, hmm, ei no no no, its more to he talk and i listen session. but i don’t think he was happy coz he said ‘ you will only make things worst if you don’t express myself’ SO i did talk a little. still remain silent most of the time though as words just cant seems to come out from my mouth. Just constantly nodding my head and secretly pray that he will forgive and forget the things that I’v said me there and then.coz i know, if i were to be in his shoe, i will be hurt too.

i’v learnt so much from him,indeed he is a mature thinking guy.i feel like I’m so young and so immature whenever he correct my bad, in proper and loving ways of course *winks* he always has his own ways to make me listen and understand things that he said. and Im really impressed by his everything , not everything but almost.. everything .. so yeah, he is my man. * yeah i know, i’m easily being impressed, but THIS is different* =)

i watched “ps i love you” last night, Mr.Bf had a terrible headache so i gave him a massage while watching the movie THEN he fell asleep half way.lol. so ended up, i watched the movie alone. i cried so so hard throughout the whole movie though i know what’s gonna happen and stuff yet i still failed to control my tears from flowing. and uhm..i wouldn’t say its a great movie coz to be frank, i didn’t really like it. BUT BUT seriously the book itself is really GREAT! worth reading. aaahh, anyways, i have been reading a lot these days, blogs,newspapers, books as i have nothing to do at home(correction: baby’s place). i finished a book Cecelia Ahern- If only you could see me now. and currently i’m reading her new book- Thanks for the memories. =)

thanks to abigail babe. I get to know this wonderful author,Cecelia Ahern, few years back when i was in Form4 through her (she borrowed me the ps i love you). do you remember those times babe? =) i miss you.i always laugh whenever i read ur entries,seeing the things u wrote and the silly funny pictures u posted up.LOL. cant wait to see you dearie and ahsan them too , heee . xoxo. =)

watched Prom night and it was not as good as i expected it to be. disappointment.TOTALLY. Its not worth watching. don’t like the story line and the sound system was really bad in malacca’s cinema. i missed “ONCE” movie though, it an international movie shown in GSC KL, but i didn’t managed to watch it due to some reason. sad sad.

owh, right! i changed my status in facebook, finally.lol. most of my contacts noticed it.lol. =) 

Uhhmm, apart from reading, i did managed to do some cooking and helped out with some of the housework too =) i cooked few rounds of barley drink and green beans for the family due to the hot weather in malacca and a complete set of dinner for the family. Baby has been bringing me around malacca for  yummy food. i was shocked to know that there is still a RM1.50 nasi lemak stall. its really yummy and the portion is just nice for a girl’s stomach.haha. u can have a meal here for less then Rm3 including drinks if you know where to eat. LOL. still trying all the yummy foods, famous dim sum, kuih muih etc..i think i’v gained some weight now *faints*

Baby surprise me by making a facial appointment for me 2 days ago. He did mentioned about it few times before that but i didn’t really bother coz i though my face is good enough. mana tahu he really went to make an appointment for me. *sweetness* That was my very first time going for this kind of facial treatment. LOL. u wana know how does it feel? ahh, PAIN. LOL. the lady say that i have a lot of big black heads *i don’t even realize it myself* haaa. the whole facial process thingy lasted for 2 hours.i dozed off a few times coz i was really relaxing after they squeezed out the black heads for you. After the facial, i’v been thinking- i will be 20 next year, so think its time for me to take my face more seriously before its too late.owh, did i tell u guys that i bought a set of KOSE product a week ago in KL? it cost me around RM400+ *half-pengsan* actually there’s nth wrong with my face, i just need to maintain it. lol.  

There’s gonna be a Farewell poolside BBQ party organized by Eddison (organizer of RAVE party) this sunday.. and i’m going to miss it as i’m in malacca right now. sobs. well, what to do, its my choice. anways, U guys have fun la ya? i will wait for the pictures!! heee. 

i always ask myself, am i a materialistic person? i mean, do we girls aim for rich guys who could afford to satisfy my material needs? a person who take the bills wherever we go, buy me expensive stuff and etc. ahh, i’m just a middle class young teenage girl who recently goes for some little , not-so-expensive branded stuff like ROXY handbags and slippers, Anna Sui’s cosmetic, Carlorino’s purse and heels etc..lol. i stillll secretly wish for my burberry handbag though. Well,i always tell myself that its not the time yet.i havn’t even got my first pay check. i still can control myself over this issue. BUT seeing those girls who are much younger wearing/holding LV,Gucci,Burberry hadbags and stuff to college really *tooot* me off. they are like 16? 17? 18? ahaa. damn lucky girls.

uhm, okie, back to the point.. girls, how do you feel if ur BF told you that ” if you wana go for all those branded, high end material stuff, then i think you are with the wrong person right now.i couldn’t meet your standard and i will definitely disappoint you” how will u react? (Disclaimer: this is nth personal, its just a question) 

phew.i’m going off for dinner now, baby’s mum cooking. most probably going out for a movie tonight, yeahhh! been at home for the whole day, stupid MSN not working. tried to sign in for millions of times but failed, i don’t knw why. sigh. 

i wana go to the zoo, i wana go to the beach…lallallaa. baby’s busy painting the house with his dad whole day. he got darker now, more manly. LOL. oh well,its okie.. i just have to wait then. I have plenty of time. =)

love,

adeline 

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: happiness, Love, mix thoughts

God,im weak.

but since young,u have trained me..

buillt me up to be strong..i will be Strong Lord,i promise.. not depending on my own strength,

but Yours.

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: Love

im terribly stress right now. 2 assignments due on the same date.im stuck at the point that i cant continue doing my research,now waiting for my lecturer to reply my email. if the outcome is good, im will be relly happy else i will need to do eveyrthing from the begning.4k and 3k of words. due next month. goshed.

student council’s upcoming events are keeping me busy and making me worried at the same time coz some ppl don’t seem to give a damn.
i tried my best, i gave out everything i could,my time, my heart, my mind and my strength.
but just look at them..no team work.no spirit in them. no serious commitment.disappointed. 
thats all i can say.DAMN.

and GREAT, now im emo-ing after listening to Celion Dion’s songs. i shouldnt have start searching for her songs in utube at the first place though i love her so much all this while, she got a very strong unique voice, but most of her songs saddens me. they’v made my heart sank..i havnt been feeling this way for almost 2months now. i was so strong..but now everything seems to come back to me.my mind is like a playback player.keep repeating itself.over and over again.heart still ache. the pain.the wound will ever heal.its like a knife,stabbing through my heart.i failed to find the STOP button, i failed to find the ERASE buttom.i failed completely and i’v let them took over my mind now. oh Hell..i dont need all of these in me now,pleasegoaway.ihateu.ireallymeanitwhenisayit.

someone
please
teach
me
how
to
get
rid
of
them

Goodbye’s the saddest word I’ll ever hear
Goodbye’s the last time I will hold you near
Someday you’ll say that word and I will cry
It’ll break my heart to hear you say goodbye 
But the love you givin me will always live
you’ll always be there every time I fall
You are to me the greatest love of all
you take my weaknessand make me strong
And I will always love you 
Till forever comes

…………………… 

Have you ever been in love You could touch the moonlight 
When your heart is shooting stars 
You’re holding heaven in your arms 
Have you ever been in love? 
Have you ever walked on air,
ever Felt like you were dreamin’ 
When you never thought it could 
But it really feels that good 
Have you ever been in love? 
Have you ever been in love 
You could touch the moonlight 
When your heart is shooting stars 
You’re holding heaven in your arms 
Have you ever been in love? 
The time I spent waiting for something 
That was heaven sent 
When you find it don’t let go I know… 
Have you ever said a prayer
 And found that it was answered 
All my hope has been restored 
I ain’t looking anymore Have you ever been… 
Some place that you ain’t leavin’ 
Somewhere you gonna stay 
When you finally found the meanin’ 
Have you ever felt this way? 
The time I spent waiting for something 
That was heaven sent 
When you find it don’t let go I know… 
Have you ever been in love 
You could touch the moonlight 
You can even reach the stars 
Doesn’t matter near or far Have you ever been in love? 
Have you ever been in love? 
So in love 

……………………………..

I learned from the past

Not everything lasts

I understand that now 

Everything changed

When you walked away

But I’ll survive somehow 

Though I have regrets

I’ll learn to forget

And just keep movin’ on 

‘Cause when love is gone

You have to be strong 

Once touched by pain

You’re not the same

But time can heal your

Heart again

So let the clouds

That bring you down

Just fade away

Away

So I try to smile

But after a while

The memories come back 

But I won’t give in

‘Cause I know that then

My heart will fade to black 

And this time I learned

That love can burn

It’s an all consuming flame 

There’s no right or wrong

I’ve gotta be strong 

Once touched by pain

You’re not the same

But time can heal your

Heart again

So let the clouds

That bring you down

Just fade away 

I know that one day

I’ll find it

Feeling again

But until I do I’m doin’

Fine by myself 

Once touched by pain

You’re not the same

But time can heal your

Heart again

So let the clouds

That bring you down 

Once touched by pain

You’re not the same

But time can heal your

Heart again

So let the clouds

That bring you down 

So let the clouds

That bring you down

Just fade away 

………………

I understood all the words, I well understood, thanks

Reasonable and new, that’s the way here

Things have changed, that flowers get fade

That the time before, was the time before

………………………..

i went to bed around 10pm last night and tonight im going to bed after talking to my baby later.i need to go out from here, i need a break, i need to go for movies and i want to SING K. aaww.. mentally tired now. goodnight. 

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: Love, mix thoughts, mood swing

these are the reasons for us to love 1) Don’t turn your back to love when it’s already in front of you.Don’t drive it away from you, because if you do, someday, you’ll think again, why you let love flew when it was there next to you. 2) In Love, think things first over if you’re sure about how you feel. Don’t fall too hard not knowing where you will stand, ‘coz it will hurt real bad if things don’t go the way you want them to be. 3) It’s an irony to know that it takes hours for someone to have guts to say “hi” to the one he likes, days to admire,weeks to miss the person,months to love, but just a blink of an eye to say goodbye.     4) Go for the person who loves you. It is not wrong to love someone who belongs to someone else, but it is much better to love someone who could also love you in return. 5) Love isn’t something we hold, it is something we set free. It’s not something we just do, but it’s something we don’t imagine to be. Lastly, it’s not something we choose, it chooses us.. 6) When you follow your heart, worry not where it will lead you,for your heart knows the way. And if you do get lost or reach a dead end, use your head to lead you back home.When you truly care for someone, you don’t look for faults, you don’t look for answers, you don’t look for mistakes.Instead, you fight for the mistakes, you accept the faults, and you overlook excuses. 7) It’s better to lose your pride to the one you love,than lose your loved one to your useless pride. 8 )Love is ………

• not “it’s your fault “,but ” i’m sorry “,
• not ” where are you ? “, but ” i’m here “,
• not “how could you ?”, but “i understand,

9) The beginning of love is to let those we love be just themselves, and not twist with our own image. Otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them. 10) If a relationship is truly meant for you, yourlove will find a way to make it happen, and God will be there to make sure it will stay.Sometimes we tend to look beyond what somebody could give us,we sometimes overlooked what they are trying to give and show us.Then it will be too late to realize that we should have been thankful for everything he/she was able to give…   i got  ’the reasons for us to love’  from my friend’s blog in multiply, and i did some editing. =)      

 had a great dinner and catch up with my 3 others babes today.=)  

There is fine line between love and hate

Love frees a soul and in the same breath can sometimes suffocate it

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: Love, mix thoughts

August 2007

…………………………………………………………………………..

theres a puppy in my house today!

played with it when i reached home from college

introducing “mao mao”!!

he is a pure shi-tzu

one month plus old only

he kept wanting to bite stuff 

tickling him

haa!!

guai ah, lets take pic together

smile

“bite bite..”

“yummy…”

after putting him back into his cage

“aaww..dont be sad. 

safe journey to JB,

and do enjoy ur whole life time with ur new owner!”

call me if she bulies u

haaa!

shu wei and i will miss u alot

although i just played with u for half an hour and so

i think we have fallen in love with u

shu wei says she dont want her bf anymore

she wants mao mao!

*haaa! 

jk laaa.

”just in case her bf reads my blog.

*winks

thats all for today

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: college life, happiness, housemates, Love, memories, mix thoughts

adeline is not in a very stable mood now.so better dont come near her for these few days or else she will bite.it is really unusual for her to act like this but u know what? she just a normal human being. u have to understand that shes not as perfect as u guys thought she is. a normal girl that is trying her best not to curse when she was at the peak of her temper last night. all the memories stroke her mind last night, her hands were shaking while she was trying to express herself. her eyes filled with tears when she knew the truth and she nearly broke down when she saw that familiar 3 words once again for such a long time.she read it and as if she could hear it kept repeating itself in the air,in her mind. but she strongly deny that it isnt true coz she dont want to know it anymore. she couldnt take any of these anymore.no no no,she cant.she rather not to know the truth. denial. thats not very good.

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: Love, memories, mix thoughts, mood swing

wanted to blog yesterday but the library closed early due to the 15th night of chinese new year.i dont understand why they need to close the library earlier (there aint chinese libririan in the working there) , and when i was there, theres still lots of students studying there. hmm.
anyways, i reached home around 4.30pm(earliest among these 4days). chat with my hosuemates, did some work, reorganised my notes,documents and file, study for a while, read 2 pages of Cecelia Ahern ” If only u could see me now” and dozed off on my bed till 6.40pm.
got ready for the special chap goh mei dinner @ Sakae Sushi , The curve with my girlfriends.
had a great time eating, talking, posing vain pictures etc. sorry to dissapoint u guys,im not going to upload any pictures in this entry.

went to midvalley after that and watched Vantage Point. cool movie. haha!
then went murni for supper and went all the way to see ‘eye of malaysia’ for the first time! =D was soo excited! reached home around 4 in the morning. phew. what a long and interesting day.
i got a very cute valentine gift last night, its pluto! remember the mickey mouse’s dog, Pluto?? haa! its now hanging happpily at my Roxy handbag.haa!
love it so much! thanks! =D

woke up around 10am this morning and here i am in my college’s pc lab writing this entry. preparing my resume and CV letter for the very first time.
and am going for a meeting at noon later for student council’s anti smoking campaign.
gonna meet up with Amin(an internatinal guy), Eliot and Danny( both local).

and and i will be away for this weekend! hee. im so excited. will update more when im back and hopefully with some lovely pictures! =)

p/s:its 11.50am and im hungry. dont wana eat alone. =.=”

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: college life, happiness, Love