Miracles in Mind

im terribly stress right now. 2 assignments due on the same date.im stuck at the point that i cant continue doing my research,now waiting for my lecturer to reply my email. if the outcome is good, im will be relly happy else i will need to do eveyrthing from the begning.4k and 3k of words. due next month. goshed.

student council’s upcoming events are keeping me busy and making me worried at the same time coz some ppl don’t seem to give a damn.
i tried my best, i gave out everything i could,my time, my heart, my mind and my strength.
but just look at them..no team work.no spirit in them. no serious commitment.disappointed. 
thats all i can say.DAMN.

and GREAT, now im emo-ing after listening to Celion Dion’s songs. i shouldnt have start searching for her songs in utube at the first place though i love her so much all this while, she got a very strong unique voice, but most of her songs saddens me. they’v made my heart sank..i havnt been feeling this way for almost 2months now. i was so strong..but now everything seems to come back to me.my mind is like a playback player.keep repeating itself.over and over again.heart still ache. the pain.the wound will ever heal.its like a knife,stabbing through my heart.i failed to find the STOP button, i failed to find the ERASE buttom.i failed completely and i’v let them took over my mind now. oh Hell..i dont need all of these in me now,pleasegoaway.ihateu.ireallymeanitwhenisayit.

someone
please
teach
me
how
to
get
rid
of
them

Goodbye’s the saddest word I’ll ever hear
Goodbye’s the last time I will hold you near
Someday you’ll say that word and I will cry
It’ll break my heart to hear you say goodbye 
But the love you givin me will always live
you’ll always be there every time I fall
You are to me the greatest love of all
you take my weaknessand make me strong
And I will always love you 
Till forever comes

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Have you ever been in love You could touch the moonlight 
When your heart is shooting stars 
You’re holding heaven in your arms 
Have you ever been in love? 
Have you ever walked on air,
ever Felt like you were dreamin’ 
When you never thought it could 
But it really feels that good 
Have you ever been in love? 
Have you ever been in love 
You could touch the moonlight 
When your heart is shooting stars 
You’re holding heaven in your arms 
Have you ever been in love? 
The time I spent waiting for something 
That was heaven sent 
When you find it don’t let go I know… 
Have you ever said a prayer
 And found that it was answered 
All my hope has been restored 
I ain’t looking anymore Have you ever been… 
Some place that you ain’t leavin’ 
Somewhere you gonna stay 
When you finally found the meanin’ 
Have you ever felt this way? 
The time I spent waiting for something 
That was heaven sent 
When you find it don’t let go I know… 
Have you ever been in love 
You could touch the moonlight 
You can even reach the stars 
Doesn’t matter near or far Have you ever been in love? 
Have you ever been in love? 
So in love 

……………………………..

I learned from the past

Not everything lasts

I understand that now 

Everything changed

When you walked away

But I’ll survive somehow 

Though I have regrets

I’ll learn to forget

And just keep movin’ on 

‘Cause when love is gone

You have to be strong 

Once touched by pain

You’re not the same

But time can heal your

Heart again

So let the clouds

That bring you down

Just fade away

Away

So I try to smile

But after a while

The memories come back 

But I won’t give in

‘Cause I know that then

My heart will fade to black 

And this time I learned

That love can burn

It’s an all consuming flame 

There’s no right or wrong

I’ve gotta be strong 

Once touched by pain

You’re not the same

But time can heal your

Heart again

So let the clouds

That bring you down

Just fade away 

I know that one day

I’ll find it

Feeling again

But until I do I’m doin’

Fine by myself 

Once touched by pain

You’re not the same

But time can heal your

Heart again

So let the clouds

That bring you down 

Once touched by pain

You’re not the same

But time can heal your

Heart again

So let the clouds

That bring you down 

So let the clouds

That bring you down

Just fade away 

………………

I understood all the words, I well understood, thanks

Reasonable and new, that’s the way here

Things have changed, that flowers get fade

That the time before, was the time before

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i went to bed around 10pm last night and tonight im going to bed after talking to my baby later.i need to go out from here, i need a break, i need to go for movies and i want to SING K. aaww.. mentally tired now. goodnight. 

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: Love, mix thoughts, mood swing

u know what? i’m really pissed with this blog somehow..i cant compose my entry nicely in proper order. the “enter” function is not working at all. i have always organize my entry in paragraph form. nice to look at and most importantly its  easier to read. BUT now < u see at my previous entries > whenever i click the ’save’ or ’save and continue editing’ or ‘publish’ button, all the paragraphs that i have formed will gather and stick together, making a long long ONE single paragraph even though i have enter two times in order to separate them(the paragraphs).i need help.seriously.is there anyone out there who knows how to fix it?do email me please- adelinecrystal@gmail.com or do leave a comment.your help is very much appreciated. thank you very much. =) 

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: mix thoughts

yea,the title has nth to do with this entry that im going to write now. hahaha.im listening to Britney’s songs now. so..got kinda excited. =) “Oops,i did it again” hahha.oh wells =)

i fell down from the concrete stair case near the main road behind my house yesterday morning. both legs were bleeding,i slowly stood up and walk to GUARDIAN @ Centerpoint (which is just across the road).bought everything there and treat my wounds on the spot before paying the bill coz my wounds were bleeding and i was in pain.
made used of my first aid knowledge though, taught 3 batch of my juniors in St. John Ambulance before back in high school, leader of the first aider.its a shame if i cant treat myself when i get hurt. =)

(in class)
i walked to College slowly after that.i was later,my friends were shocked when they saw my legs.hope that it wont leave any scars. =(learnt some new cantonese line that day. i think my cantonese speaking is improving. *winks

The due date of the coursework from UK is getting nearer. goshed.there is still another coursework, still waiting for the news from UK. finals are external papers. x(

had 4 meetings after Lab class today, but i skipped 2 of them in the middle because i have more important things to settle @ one utama. took a cab to one Utama with m macbook after the first meeting. i have 3 important task that i must that afternoon.and i reached one Utama, i found out that i did not bring the important doc with me(which is task1), i asked the texsi driver to u-turn back to my place-with a offer of paying extra money. but he did not want to wait to me to grab my stuff so i took another texsi again to OneU. paid Rm7.60 in total. sent my macbook to the store( task2) and went to complete my task2. then task3. =) went back to the store again after completing task 1 and 3. Jason(the guy that taught me how to function my mac) told me that he can’t help me with my task2, i need to go back to him again after i got another CD. then i took a cab from new wing back to my place, RM6. =.=” i was too tired to walk to old wing texsi stand to take the normal cab which will only cost RM3 for me to go home. the ticket system there is way tooooo expensive. wonder how many idiots like me are willing to take their cab. if only i wasnt carrying my macbook with tons of groceries.. if only i wasnt that exhausted..i will for sure go to the old wing texsi stand. hmph!

was being informed that scholarship holders are require to ’serve’ the college for special events. i was asked to be in the college this sunday 10am to 6pm for the College’s open day. i heard my other friends who are also scholarship holders were asked to serve in the library for 4 hours a week. hhmm..i didnt knw about it till this morning. oh wells. 

i will be the MC of the inter class competition-amazing factor event. wow! im so so happy! they say i will be holding a mic throughout the event. in charge of the introduction part, registration, fees…*excited* cant wait for it! 

and and and there will be a year3 graduation party-RAVE soon.saw the poster designed by the design team, its amazing! disco ball, guitar, base, speaker..clubbing and party-ish night @ the underground car park. its going to be GREAT! 

april orientation coming up soon too! weee~ im involved too. haa! 

1 cent coin campaign is good, we have at least 10,000 of one cent coins in the collection box. hee. 2 weeks plus to go. =)anti-smoking campaign has finally ended! haha..no need to go around and do inspection anymore.

yay!we talked about trip to redang and go for kayak-ing. =D hahha. 

my life is getting more interesting and more drama too.ahhaha. the heels that i bought with carissa that day has just died. it last me for 2 weeks. darn! RM48 for 1 weeks? i wore it for less then 10 times, less then 100hours.
how can u die just like that?! =’(

bought a cutie from forever 21 and a brown top from PDI.
*big wide grins* u knw what?im broke.lols! so sad that i couldn’t join Carissa them for the singapore movie tonight. 
sobs. adeline is on budget now until next wednesday.hahahaa. i cant wait till that day.=) 

this is my housemate’s baby .




seeeeee, look at the way he sleeps.
sooo cute.ahahhaha.at the end, i woke him up(4th pic). lols! 

HELP!

im craving for this NOW.

sobs. i want…

should have walked to old wing for this

im having my holidays now.

hee. =)

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: college life, mix thoughts

these are the reasons for us to love 1) Don’t turn your back to love when it’s already in front of you.Don’t drive it away from you, because if you do, someday, you’ll think again, why you let love flew when it was there next to you. 2) In Love, think things first over if you’re sure about how you feel. Don’t fall too hard not knowing where you will stand, ‘coz it will hurt real bad if things don’t go the way you want them to be. 3) It’s an irony to know that it takes hours for someone to have guts to say “hi” to the one he likes, days to admire,weeks to miss the person,months to love, but just a blink of an eye to say goodbye.     4) Go for the person who loves you. It is not wrong to love someone who belongs to someone else, but it is much better to love someone who could also love you in return. 5) Love isn’t something we hold, it is something we set free. It’s not something we just do, but it’s something we don’t imagine to be. Lastly, it’s not something we choose, it chooses us.. 6) When you follow your heart, worry not where it will lead you,for your heart knows the way. And if you do get lost or reach a dead end, use your head to lead you back home.When you truly care for someone, you don’t look for faults, you don’t look for answers, you don’t look for mistakes.Instead, you fight for the mistakes, you accept the faults, and you overlook excuses. 7) It’s better to lose your pride to the one you love,than lose your loved one to your useless pride. 8 )Love is ………

• not “it’s your fault “,but ” i’m sorry “,
• not ” where are you ? “, but ” i’m here “,
• not “how could you ?”, but “i understand,

9) The beginning of love is to let those we love be just themselves, and not twist with our own image. Otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them. 10) If a relationship is truly meant for you, yourlove will find a way to make it happen, and God will be there to make sure it will stay.Sometimes we tend to look beyond what somebody could give us,we sometimes overlooked what they are trying to give and show us.Then it will be too late to realize that we should have been thankful for everything he/she was able to give…   i got  ’the reasons for us to love’  from my friend’s blog in multiply, and i did some editing. =)      

 had a great dinner and catch up with my 3 others babes today.=)  

There is fine line between love and hate

Love frees a soul and in the same breath can sometimes suffocate it

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: Love, mix thoughts

August 2007

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theres a puppy in my house today!

played with it when i reached home from college

introducing “mao mao”!!

he is a pure shi-tzu

one month plus old only

he kept wanting to bite stuff 

tickling him

haa!!

guai ah, lets take pic together

smile

“bite bite..”

“yummy…”

after putting him back into his cage

“aaww..dont be sad. 

safe journey to JB,

and do enjoy ur whole life time with ur new owner!”

call me if she bulies u

haaa!

shu wei and i will miss u alot

although i just played with u for half an hour and so

i think we have fallen in love with u

shu wei says she dont want her bf anymore

she wants mao mao!

*haaa! 

jk laaa.

”just in case her bf reads my blog.

*winks

thats all for today

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: college life, happiness, housemates, Love, memories, mix thoughts

adeline is not in a very stable mood now.so better dont come near her for these few days or else she will bite.it is really unusual for her to act like this but u know what? she just a normal human being. u have to understand that shes not as perfect as u guys thought she is. a normal girl that is trying her best not to curse when she was at the peak of her temper last night. all the memories stroke her mind last night, her hands were shaking while she was trying to express herself. her eyes filled with tears when she knew the truth and she nearly broke down when she saw that familiar 3 words once again for such a long time.she read it and as if she could hear it kept repeating itself in the air,in her mind. but she strongly deny that it isnt true coz she dont want to know it anymore. she couldnt take any of these anymore.no no no,she cant.she rather not to know the truth. denial. thats not very good.

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: Love, memories, mix thoughts, mood swing

Nothing gonna stop us now
Looking in your eyes I can see a paradiseThis world that I found is too good to be trueStanding here beside you, want so much to give youThis love in my heart that I’m feeling for you

Let ‘em say we’re crazy, don’t care ’bout thatPut your hand in my hand baby, don’t ever look backLet the world around us just fall apartBaby, we can make it if we’re heart to heart

And we can build this dream together, standing strong foreverNothing’s gonna stop us nowAnd if this world runs out of lovers, we’ll still have each otherNothing’s gonna stop us, nothing’s gonna stop us nowWoh woh oh

I’m so glad I found you, I’m not gonna lose youWhatever it takes, I will stay here with youTake it to the good times, see it through the bad timesWhatever it takes is what I’m gonna do

Let ‘em say we’re crazy, what do they knowPut your arms around me baby, don’t ever let goLet the world around us just fall apartBaby, we can make it if we’re heart to heart

And we can build this dream together, standing strong foreverNothing’s gonna stop us nowAnd if this world runs out of lovers, we’ll still have each otherNothing’s gonna stop us, nothing’s gonna stop us

Ooh, all that I need is youAll that I ever needAnd all that I want to doIs hold you forever, forever and ever

And we can build this dream together, standing strong foreverNothing’s gonna stop us nowAnd if this world runs out of lovers, we’ll still have each otherNothing’s gonna stop us, nothing’s gonna stop usWoh oh oh-oh-oh Nothing’s gonna stop us, nothing’s gonna stop us nowHey baby

And we can build this dream together, standing strong foreverNothing’s gonna stop us nowAnd if this world runs out of lovers, we’ll still have each otherNothing’s gonna stop us, nothing’s gonna stop us now

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: mix thoughts

phew. Just had our 2nd house meeting.i tried my best to make things easier for them to understand and explained that there is no hard feelings about the issue that we talked about. we are all living in the same house as a family. there is around 15 of us in the house, all girls. 

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: college life, happiness, housemates, memories, mix thoughts

the 15th day of chinese new year a.k.a Chinese v’day day


*ahem
taking tons of pics of myself as usual

shes sooooo CUTE!

in the car

cool stuff @ Jonker walk

super relaxing

miracles do happen.

things happened for a reason.

i cant believe what i’v gotten myself into.

but im really glad that i did.no harm giving it a try.

i keep asking myself..
is this just a dream?when will it end?..will it last?

i have no idea.i dare not say anything.
im here.standing still.waiting.hoping.and praying.
i trust u.
take great care of yourself in France.
study hard and make me proud.
=)

anyways,

melacca trip was awesome!

had so much fun.

it was an exciting and memorable trip indeed.

thanks to my beloved girlfriend-jia yii.

thank you for bringing me around.

thanks for everything.

thank you!!

im exhausted.mentally and physically.

theres so much things to be done..

alot of things in hand.

alot of things in mind too.

but im so glad that u called and msged.

u’v made my day.thanks.

to be continue.

p/s: hopefully i can get my macbook by friday.

*cross fingers

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: college life, happiness, mix thoughts

*mua

my cousins!

v’day in kch
thanks =)

haha. thats all folks! stay tune. =)

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: college life, God's words, happiness, Love, memories, mix thoughts