this is how i look like now. LOL. one word-vain. haha. oh well, i’m going out with baby and his 3 other KL friends tonight.just dressed up, writing this entry now to kill the time. =)

goshed.you know what? i’m having that kinda mix feeling again and damn i hate my mood swing. pms. sigh. =(

I’m flying back to KCH tomorrow, yea thats right. Tomorrow. 25th June 08. goshed, i’m gonna miss my friends here especially baby. we bought the happy sim card that enables us to talk long hours with the maximum charge of 99cents per call. very worth it eh? so check it out on the website couples! =)

watched “Get Smart” with baby last night. it was hilarious. we had popcorn too. LOLx. not bad after all =)and we watched “no reservations” too on the laptop just now after lunch. its a nice movie, some part made me cried, e.i:when the little girl lost her mother in the car accident =(

hmm, what else to share? owh well baby is going to send me back to KL to pack and then he will drive me all the way up to the airport tomorrow for my flight, sweet isn’t he? =) owh ya! i went to church last sunday with baby and his mum.

p/s: to the anonymous and boom in my chatbox, 4 weeks at the banner means 28 days actually, not one month.LOL. try to take 7days x 4 weeks = 28days. see? =)

and for your information, tomorrow is our  4th month anniversary. =)

signing off now. i will be in KCH then for my next entry

*hugs and kissess*

love,

adeline 

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: mix thoughts, mood swing

dear friends..dear abigail babe.
just wana tell you all that im not lazy in updating my blog k..
its just that,i am extremely busy with my work and theres nth much happening in my life here too since the last entry, was battling with my assignments this entire week.
didn’t sleep well for 3 days already, 3days-slept for 10 hours in total. amazing right?
everyone who get to meet me this 2 weeks will see the worst part of me, i mean, with the panda eyes,pimples, tiring look and…..*sshh*
i spend at least 15hours with my books and laptop everyday. now i feel so smart. done so much reading. haha.
*i’m sorry if i ignore some of u guys in msn, im sorry if i ignore u guys in college and at home..im sorry i didnt manage to spend time with u girls talking and eating like how we used to. i sorry for not going for meals together..im sorry.
i just don’t feel like smiling at times, talking. don’t feel like entertaining others-i don’t have the extra energy to do so. but no worries, adeline will be back soon, it will be over soon =)
went to my latin class just now for one hour, my partner is a sweet guy.LOL.
Sunny really can dance man! elaine is really good latin dancer too.
love to partner with her, she got the power to push and turn.
when i dance with her right, i feel..weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
geng-ness!
syok-ness!
LOL. 
lalalllallaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
didn’t take any new pictures coz im not in the mood for the entire week.cried over the phone, in the shower, in bed few times. LOL.

i am fine now don’t worry.=)
i just need rest.going to bed soon.skipping dinner.
going college library tmr morning till noon.how i wish it opens till night.
i’ll just pray hard.hope everything goes well.coz im doing my best now.

love,
adeline

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: college life, mix thoughts, mood swing

this girl is not thinking right again. She cried herself to sleep last night without knowing the reason why. she sobbed to be exact. funny isn’t it? Its been so long since she had done that to herself. Didn’t really sleep well last night, woke up 3 times in the middle of the night, wasn’t sure what’s on her mind, she just feel like crying again and again under her blanket hugging her soft toys, hoping that her roommate didn’t hear her. As the result, her eyes aren’t that bright and shinny today. I think she got her eye bags too. Goshed . that is terrible. Woke up around 8 in the morning, had a long cold shower,refreshing her mind & soul and had her honey oats drink as her breakfast.

She is listening to her favorite songs, writing this entry while waiting for the time to go college for a meeting.
After latin class, she’s going to have her hair cut and maybe going for 2 movies ‘over her dead body’ and ‘ definitely, maybe’ or ‘ fool’s gold’ with her date.
It weird knowing that she’s not craving for any popcorns this time.
she just need a break, away from people, so she doesnt need to smile at all times even though her heart is aching deep inside. laughing and crying freely in the cinema hall, in the dark, watching all those romance drama.
Scary movies are a NO for her, she’s not going to pay to scare herself to death.
Dinner at One Utama and must be home before 8pm to do her assignments.
Taking cab though.
thinking of going to sing K alone,but its like so weird when people see her go into the room alone, singing alone for hours. hahaa. yea,she do mind what people thinks about her.

You know there’s an international guy followed her in college yesterday after the RAVE graduation Party’s promotion, luckily Chaman and Wan yoe were there in front of her so she ran into the lift with them.
*thats funny and scary at the same time*
She was about to walk home with her whole piles of books and files. darn heavy.

last night there’s a whole bunch of firemen came to her house due to the honey bee hive behind her house. but they couldn’t spot the hive last night. The stupid warden , Mr. Lee called them up and report t to them but he didnt inform us that the FIREMEN will come for our rescue. so geng ah, the girls were like ‘wow’ , coz they never met so many firemen in uniforms and the HUGE ‘fireman’s car’ personally( have no idea what to call that ) anyways, after checking and talking to the girls in the house, they climb out from the back of the fence to the main road to their ‘HuGe car’. hahaa. thats so so so funny, came in through the front door and went back through the fence behind the house. it was like a kungfu movie where you see a bunch of ninja men climbing the fence.LOL. all of the girls n the house were like expecting them to jump.

the weather is so fine now,
think its gonna rain anytime soon or around evening time again as usual.

alright! thats all for today, she has to finish up her drink,
grab her heels and head to college now.
=)  

good day everyone!

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: college life, mix thoughts, mood swing

im terribly stress right now. 2 assignments due on the same date.im stuck at the point that i cant continue doing my research,now waiting for my lecturer to reply my email. if the outcome is good, im will be relly happy else i will need to do eveyrthing from the begning.4k and 3k of words. due next month. goshed.

student council’s upcoming events are keeping me busy and making me worried at the same time coz some ppl don’t seem to give a damn.
i tried my best, i gave out everything i could,my time, my heart, my mind and my strength.
but just look at them..no team work.no spirit in them. no serious commitment.disappointed. 
thats all i can say.DAMN.

and GREAT, now im emo-ing after listening to Celion Dion’s songs. i shouldnt have start searching for her songs in utube at the first place though i love her so much all this while, she got a very strong unique voice, but most of her songs saddens me. they’v made my heart sank..i havnt been feeling this way for almost 2months now. i was so strong..but now everything seems to come back to me.my mind is like a playback player.keep repeating itself.over and over again.heart still ache. the pain.the wound will ever heal.its like a knife,stabbing through my heart.i failed to find the STOP button, i failed to find the ERASE buttom.i failed completely and i’v let them took over my mind now. oh Hell..i dont need all of these in me now,pleasegoaway.ihateu.ireallymeanitwhenisayit.

someone
please
teach
me
how
to
get
rid
of
them

Goodbye’s the saddest word I’ll ever hear
Goodbye’s the last time I will hold you near
Someday you’ll say that word and I will cry
It’ll break my heart to hear you say goodbye 
But the love you givin me will always live
you’ll always be there every time I fall
You are to me the greatest love of all
you take my weaknessand make me strong
And I will always love you 
Till forever comes

…………………… 

Have you ever been in love You could touch the moonlight 
When your heart is shooting stars 
You’re holding heaven in your arms 
Have you ever been in love? 
Have you ever walked on air,
ever Felt like you were dreamin’ 
When you never thought it could 
But it really feels that good 
Have you ever been in love? 
Have you ever been in love 
You could touch the moonlight 
When your heart is shooting stars 
You’re holding heaven in your arms 
Have you ever been in love? 
The time I spent waiting for something 
That was heaven sent 
When you find it don’t let go I know… 
Have you ever said a prayer
 And found that it was answered 
All my hope has been restored 
I ain’t looking anymore Have you ever been… 
Some place that you ain’t leavin’ 
Somewhere you gonna stay 
When you finally found the meanin’ 
Have you ever felt this way? 
The time I spent waiting for something 
That was heaven sent 
When you find it don’t let go I know… 
Have you ever been in love 
You could touch the moonlight 
You can even reach the stars 
Doesn’t matter near or far Have you ever been in love? 
Have you ever been in love? 
So in love 

……………………………..

I learned from the past

Not everything lasts

I understand that now 

Everything changed

When you walked away

But I’ll survive somehow 

Though I have regrets

I’ll learn to forget

And just keep movin’ on 

‘Cause when love is gone

You have to be strong 

Once touched by pain

You’re not the same

But time can heal your

Heart again

So let the clouds

That bring you down

Just fade away

Away

So I try to smile

But after a while

The memories come back 

But I won’t give in

‘Cause I know that then

My heart will fade to black 

And this time I learned

That love can burn

It’s an all consuming flame 

There’s no right or wrong

I’ve gotta be strong 

Once touched by pain

You’re not the same

But time can heal your

Heart again

So let the clouds

That bring you down

Just fade away 

I know that one day

I’ll find it

Feeling again

But until I do I’m doin’

Fine by myself 

Once touched by pain

You’re not the same

But time can heal your

Heart again

So let the clouds

That bring you down 

Once touched by pain

You’re not the same

But time can heal your

Heart again

So let the clouds

That bring you down 

So let the clouds

That bring you down

Just fade away 

………………

I understood all the words, I well understood, thanks

Reasonable and new, that’s the way here

Things have changed, that flowers get fade

That the time before, was the time before

………………………..

i went to bed around 10pm last night and tonight im going to bed after talking to my baby later.i need to go out from here, i need a break, i need to go for movies and i want to SING K. aaww.. mentally tired now. goodnight. 

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: Love, mix thoughts, mood swing

adeline is not in a very stable mood now.so better dont come near her for these few days or else she will bite.it is really unusual for her to act like this but u know what? she just a normal human being. u have to understand that shes not as perfect as u guys thought she is. a normal girl that is trying her best not to curse when she was at the peak of her temper last night. all the memories stroke her mind last night, her hands were shaking while she was trying to express herself. her eyes filled with tears when she knew the truth and she nearly broke down when she saw that familiar 3 words once again for such a long time.she read it and as if she could hear it kept repeating itself in the air,in her mind. but she strongly deny that it isnt true coz she dont want to know it anymore. she couldnt take any of these anymore.no no no,she cant.she rather not to know the truth. denial. thats not very good.

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: Love, memories, mix thoughts, mood swing

Hate That I Love You feat.

Ne-Yo & Rihanna

Yeaah
heyy heyy

That’s how much I love you (yeah)
That’s how much I need you (yeah yeah yeah)

And I can’t stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile?
And then I like you for a while
No…

But you won’t let me
You upset me girl and then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
Can’t remember what you did

But I hate it
You know exactly what to do so that I can’t stay mad at you for too long
That’s wrong but I hate it

You know exactly how to touch
So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah)
I can’t stand how much I need you (I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy (ohh)
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so (ooh)

And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
Sad and it’s not fair
How you take advantage of the fact that I…
Love you beyond a reason why (whyyy)
And it just ain’t right

And I hate how much I love you girl
I can’t stand how much I need you (yeah yeah)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so

One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss will make me weak
But no one in this world
Knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me…

yeahhhhh ohhhh ohhh
oh yeah

It’s how much I love you
It’s how nuch I need you
It’s how much I love you (ohh)
It’s how much I need you
And I hate that I love you
Sooooo
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you soo
And I hate that I love you soo sooo

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: mood swing

all kinds of random posts…

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got this from a forwarded email

A favour to ask,
it only takes a minute….
* I * 6 * Y
The Breast Cancer site is having trouble getting enough people to click on their site daily to meet their quota of donating at least one free mammogram a day to an underprivileged woman. It takes less than a minute to go to their site and click on “donating a mammogram” for free (pink window in the middle).

This doesn’t cost you a thing. Their corporate sponsors/advertisers use the number of daily visits to donate mammogram in exchange for advertising.

Here’s the web site! Pass it along to people you know.
http://www.thebreastcancersite.com

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tmr having moral studies exam, gonna study now.
still feeling weak but im okay.
i will be okay…
i think..

thats all,
lyne

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had a long long girls talk.
it was really great.
enjoyed it alot.

mine
=)

last night.
we yamcha at home from 11pm till 12.30pm.

took all of our snacks.

yea,i know, u must be thinking why am i still taking all these even though im sick.
well..no one cares right? my period started last night, im feeling so damn weak today.
told someone that i think i feel like as if im dying this afternoon..lie on my bed for the whole afternoon,felt horrible..but no one cares..no one ask about how i feel..im having low bp again now.loosing so much blood.feeling dizzy and tired all the time..
i need someone here.desperate for someone to who is willing to lend a shoulder for me to lie on.i feel so alone.really need to be hugged..need some sweet talks..need some comfort..goshed.
=’(
feel like crying..
am asking to much.im expecting too much.im a darn stupid girl..immature.lousy.

gonna start changing my lifestyle now.no more relying too much on someone.
expanding my social life. .get to know more new friends and mix around.
yes,i can do it.
i must change.

had lunch with ven and her classmate yesterday after Malaysian studies class.
sick looking me.
no cam wore for me these days.
no mood for it.
totally.
=(
venetiavenetia’s classmate
call him wai wai.
what a cute name.
very friendly guy.he sent me a few songs that he composed and recorded.
piano only.but its very nice.talented guy indeed.
looking forward to know him more.
=)

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went to the curve 3days ago with Ai san(house mate) and Jia Yi ( ex-house mate).

after we parked our car, this friendly guard offered us a lift to the nearest entrance.

this is our first time using this service.
we 3 got so excited. =)

pic taken after he dropped us off.
so nice of him.
=)
theres still nice ppl around us.

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Had a hair cut last week at monsoon-id (oneU).RM35

and im SO not satisfied with it.

going to straighten my hair soon
(end of Nov or Early of Dec)

had a lonely lunch today

……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………

i have been taking all these this few days..

and im going crazy.
non of them taste nice.

i have to prepare hot water to college every morning just in case i lost control and cough non stop in class due to the air-condition.

im sick.
no one cares..
hate it.




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written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: health, housemates, mix thoughts, mood swing

sorry for not updating,i wasnt feeling well last few days..was in bed most of the time.

=D

i slept till 4pm yesterday.
because i was having fever and headache and a little bit of sore throat since the night before.

woked up at 4pm, got ready,
walked to oneU to surprise miss Carissa Sammy at NEWAYS at 4.45pm,
because yesterday was her birthday.

we sang K till 6.30pm

at night, we had a BBQ party for her by the pool.
no mood to go around and take more pics though, im sorry.

girls power.
i sat at aside, entertain by Jabez Ho.
i was feeling sooo dizzy and sick at that moment.
rushed home and cooked poridge for myself.
because it was already 10.20pm by the time i reached home and i havnt eaten anything yet except for the sausages n fishballs and it almost make me puke.
can faint anytime when i was there, felt really uncomfortable.seriously.
took the medicine. i’ll post about me n the watson pharmacist “interesting story” soon after i am fully recover.i was soo geram. but the story is really funny la.=D

took these medicine

my body temperature was 39.4′c last night

slept really early last night.
today, i woke up at 8.30pm.Jabez came and gave me a sudden visit at my house.haa!
then we walked to oneU together at around 10.40am,meeting carissa and fish at Neways, yes,we sang K again, eventhough i was having really bad sore throat today but still i sang well.
=D
picked jiwang songs and i nearly cried.
thinking of someone when i sing some song.
=’(
jabez ho

me

carissa sammy
carissa did took some pics of me singing, will post up real soon after i get them for her. =D

my throat is getting sore now..sobs..miss my lovely voice.=D

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: health, mix thoughts, mood swing

sad.disappointed.not-being-me.

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: mood swing

i found this
and
it remind me of someone that im trying not to miss

miss being hold by u..

p/s:have fun there..

written by adelinecrystal \\ tags: mood swing